Suffice it to say that it has been quite some time since I updated my journal entry. Last one posted was Oct 2003 ... That is pretty sad. I know, I know ... I have been neglegent of my dear friends and insane artists here at DA. I still love you and still look at your stuff. I am still drawing here and there but have yet to post anything.

I want to thank all who have looked at my doodles and commented or even Faved ... that is really awesome. I usually draw just to releave stress or keep from doing something stupid to myself. Been down that road too many times.

I have some news ... I am out of highschool now. I moved to LA with my sister. It is going great. I start college on the day I loathe ... (drum roll) Valentines Day. I know it is cliche to hate VD just as it is kind of cliche to enjoy it. I don't only hate it because for one reason or another I have been alone on this particular day, even if I was in a relationship, but also, I seem to have very bad days on this day. I begin to feel as though I have no one to turn to on this day. I feel incredibly misunderstood, unimportant, vulnerable and people seem to be very heartless to me on this day. I have never had a good VD in my entire life and I doubt I ever will ... it is my most unlucky of days of every single year. So, hopefully, doubtfully, but hopefully, I will have an ok first day of college. I am nervous because not only have I never gone to a college before, I know no one, I don't know the city all that well, and my clothes don't really fit me right anymore. They are too big on me and I feel uncomfortable in them. Money is tight due to tuition and books, though, so I will just have to deal with it.

On another note, before moving, I decided to end a year long relationship with a boy that I really loved. I don't know how in love with him I was anymore, but I did love him very very much. I have done the long distance thing and all it does is cause pain and sorrow. I didn't want to deal with all the sad phone calls, yearnings and depression associated with such when I have all these new stressors, changes and responsibilities. Plus, I have hidden things from myself for too long. I need to do some self anylizing. Anyone who knows me would laugh at that because I do it all the time anyway, but I mean on a much deeper scale. I have some things I need to work out and I don't need to be dragging anyone else through it with me. I just need not to be in a relationship right now. I feel bad that I broke his heart though. It really saddens me.

Oh, and I crossed the year long stretch of not smoking. It has been a year and a month and a half. Yay me. Well, here are some people who I know, love, watch, admire, am fascinated with, or just intrigue me for whatever reason. ... in no particular order, of course :